Happy Birthday..!!

Comel kn baby kt dalam pic ni? :) ..tgk pipi dia..siapa yg tk geram kalau faqihah ada kt depan mata kn..hehe..for sure merah pipi dia kna kiss nnti.. ;)

Her name is Nur Faqihah Dayana..she's 5 years old today..

" eh, abg dah ada anak ke? "

La, mana pulak dtgnya budak kecik ni..tdi tk ada..tau2 terus tnya soalan je..huh..

" ye dik, faqihah is my daughter..

dah diam, abg nk sambung cerita ni.. " 

Hari ni birthday faqihah..hopefully yah happy hari ni eak..bonda dh korban waktu tidur bonda smlm utk siapkan preparation utk birthday party yah hari ni..

Bonda buatkan special utk yah, chocolate moist cake with special toppings..bukan kek je yah, goodies pun bonda ada sediakan utk birthday party yah..

Bonda dah buat yg terbaik utk besarkan faqihah, aqil & azry..most of the time, bonda besarkan yah dgn abg aqil & azry seorang diri..bukan perkara yg mudah utk lakukan semua ni yah..bonda mmg tabah..besar pengorbanan bonda
utk anak2..

Hopefully, aqil, faqihah & azry dpt jaga bonda dgn baik bersama2 dgn uncle nanti eak..dan uncle harap aqil, faqihah & azry boleh terima uncle sebagai daddy..kita sama2 berikan kebahagiaan kpd bonda..

Lastly, uncle nk ucap;

p/s: sory faqihah, uncle tk dpt bagi present for your birthday..hopefully yah tk marah eak.. ;)

is it true?? (samb.......4)

remember the knock, knock..!? from that moment, i'm the happiest man alive..why i said this? it's solely because JJ finally open her heart for me..that's the happiest moment in my life.. :)

lepas drpd mlm tu, aku & JJ saling bertukar SMS..kitorang mmg happy..panggilan akak bertukar kpd syg..nazreen bertukar kpd dear.. ;) ..aku ingat lagi first date yg aku set dgn JJ dated 6th April 2013 hari sabtu..malam sebelumnya mmg aku excited melampau smpai tk sabar nk tggu hari esok..biase la salam cinta aku dibalas dengan senyuman JJ yg manis & memikat hati..hehe..so, malam tu aku tido mcm biase even excited..jgn terlampau excited sampai tk boleh tido nnti bangun lewat melepas first date..hihi..so, keesokan paginya aku bangun tido mcm biasa terus SMS JJ..

"buat apa abg SMS JJ?" 

apa la lembap sgt kau ni dik..dah tentu la abg tanya nk keluar pkul berapa semua..tolong jangan lembapkan minda tu boleh?

unfortunately, nk dijadikan cerita, tiba2 hujan turun..hmm..apa lagi, frust la aku..klau sekejap tk ap, hujan turun sampai ke petang.. :(

"knp abg frust?"

 eh, budak ni..tanya soalan mcm tk pegi sekolah je? tk apa, kau budak lagi, bila dah besar nnti kau akan mengerti semua ni..for sure abg frust dik sbb first date abg dgn JJ cancel..ok, faham dah? digest dgn pantas dlm otak tu..jgn lembap sgt eak dik..haha..apa boleh buat, dah ditakdirkan hujan turun sampai ke petang hari tu..so, JJ just reply tk jdi keluar sbb hujan..lgipun hari tu JJ mmg ad kat luar dgn anak2..JJ bwk diorang pegi mkan kat Riverfront..so, aku kat rumah berguling-guling atas katil sbb frust fisrt date kitorg cancel..

so, aku set la date pd keesokan harinya..

 "hari ap eak abg?" 

ish, budak ni..aku tapik dahi tu nanti..dh hari ni sabtu, so, esok mesti la khamis..

"oo, khamis eak abg? sory2 adik tk tau" 

hehe..ngok la adik ni..lepas sabtu hari ahad..kn dh free kna tipu dgn abg..padan muka kau dik..dah dok diam2 abg nk sambung cerita cinta ni..

JJ pun ok nk date esok..so, kitorg terus berbalas SMS menyatakan perasaan masing2 yg tk disangka-sangka..aku tk sangka yg JJ akan terima aku & JJ tk sangka yg aku ad hati pd dia..so sweet kn?

"werxxx! sweet la sgt abg" :p

ya allah, budak kecik ni mmg nk kna tapik..kau dok diam2 dik..kang abg tapik dahi kau jendul pulak dahi kau nnti..aku set date dgn JJ kat Jusco..so, malam tu after saying gudnite to each other, aku tido mcm biasa..

hari yang dinanti-nantikan pun tiba..hari ahad, 7th April 2013..bangun pagi tu aku terus ambil fon & text JJ..mcm biasa tanya nk keluar pkul brp..tak lama lepas tu, JJ reply..aku bca SMS & frust..nk tau knp? JJ ckp tk jadi keluar, JJ kna balik kampung..so, double frust aku dpt that weekend..but its ok, i'm willing to wait for u JJ..even it will take me forever to date you.. :)

"what happen after that abg?" 

eh, tk ada after that dik..wah, speaking kau eak? kau tk payah nk speaking sgt dgn abg..dah maghrib ni..abg stop dulu, jom solat..hehe..

p/s: to be continued in next entry..

Pejamlah.....

22/02/2014@5.27 a.m.

Awak, sy tk boleh tido..sy tk thu knp..resah sgt hati sy ni..rindu sgt pd awak.. :(

Aliff Satar - Akhiri Penantianku

Resah hatiku

Selalunya ada

Fikirkan kamu

Setiap waktuku

Tenangkan jiwaku

Bila kau disisi

Dalam dakapanmu buat ku mati

Jauh

Ku menunggu

Biar ketahuanmu

Disini ku merindu

Jauh 

Ku berharap

Kembali kau padaku

Akhiri penantianku

Tak mampunya aku

Bila kau tiada

Gelap hariku

Sepi hidupku

Lemah langkahku

Mendengar suaramu

Laju jantungku

Bila menyentuhmu

Jauh

Ku menunggu

Biar ketahuanmu

Aku merindu

Jauh

Ku berharap

Kembali kau padaku

Akhiri penantianku

p/s: thnx syg..i'm addicted to this song that you dedicate to me recently.. <3

Its You......JJ.....

It is so true that distance can't separate anyone..

It is also true that being near can't bind anyone..

I just want you to know that my feelings for you is true..

I just want you to know that my heart beats only to live my life by loving you..

I want you to know that every time i close my eyes,

I only see you..

What i really want to say is that..,

 it's you who i miss & love dearly in every beats of my heart..

Dusty???

yeah, its been a long time since i last updated my blog..it looks pretty dusty to me..hmm..its not that i've been busy until i don't even have time to update it, but its a matter of hurt..i'm so hurt that it makes me sad to even look at this blog..i created this blog for the sole purpose of telling how much i love her..

ok, cukup la mukaddimah in english ryte? sebenarnya hati & perasaan sy terluka dgn ap yg terjadi..sy tk nk mention kat sini apa yg terjadi..biarlah awak & sy je yg tahu..biarlah ada orang yang burukkan awak pd sy tapi sy tetap sayangkan awak..tk pernah terdetik dalam hati sy untuk membenci awak..malah, semakin hari sy semakin menyayangi awak..sy tk pasti lah sama ada awak sedar akan kewujudan sy serta perasaan sayang & cinta sy pd awak selama ini..

sy faham keadaan awak, sy faham masalah awak, sy tahu ap yg awak lalui selama ini..bukannya sy tk mengerti semua itu..sy nk awak hadapi semua itu bersama dengan sy bukannya menderita seorang diri..sebab itu lah setiap kali awak moody, sy akan tanya knp awak moody..tapi awak tetap mendiamkan diri walaupun sy ulang soalan yg sama & paksa awak untuk ceritakan pd sy..sy tahu awak bukan jenis yang suka berkongsi masalah awak dengan insan lain..but at least i really hope that you will open yourself up to me..sy nk jadi insan yg penting dalam hidup awak..insan yg awak boleh kongsi suka duka dalam hidup awak..

sy tahu sy pernah berkelakuan kebudak-budakan pd awak..sy minta maaf..tpi, semua itu bukannya sifat sebenar dalam diri sy..sy sayangkan awak, sy takut kehilangan awak..sbb tu sy jdi mcm tu..sy bukan suka2 nk buat awak marah..sy cuma nk awak anggap yg sy adalah insan yg penting yg hadir dalam hidup awak hinggalah ajal memisahkan kita..

sy sedar bahawa tidak cukup dengan hanya kata-kata untuk memenangi hati awak..sy mohon awak berilah sy masa & peluang untuk buktikan pd awak betapa sy menyayangi & mencintai awak..sy mohon awak percayalah pd sy..percaya pd kematangan sy..percaya dengan perasaan sy pd awak..

Kemana Hilangnya Patriotisme??

ni lagi sekor lahanat..hina lagu negaraku pulak..nk kata bengap, study kat UMT..satu tmpt dgn adik aku..

ap la masalah lahanat ni..kau hina lagu negaraku, kau tu stay kt mna skrg?? study kt mna?? Malaysia bro..

kalau rsa dh tk boleh nk hormat negara kau ni, kau pergi berambus..cari negara lain..kat sana kau nk tumpahkan mani kau ke, nk makan taik ke, itu kau punya pasal..

bab agama pun mesti fail lahanat ni..kau ingat boleh ke doa supaya Allah matikan manusia ni?? asal bangang sgt kau ni farizal?? 


mohon mohd farizal tumpahkan maninya...........

S.O.B. Calvin Gani........

ramai yang semakin berani menghina Islam secara terang-terangan di facebook..lahanat ni salah seorang drpd mereka..

 tk tau la ap masalah lahanat ni sampai nk menghina Nabi & Islam..pandai pulak buat cerita..kat mna kau dengar sirah Nabi ni weyh?? 

aku mengaji kat sekolah agama rakyat drpd darjah 1 sampai 6, sambung pulak form 1 smpai 3 kat sekolah agama, tk pernah aku dengar ustaz aku cerita mcm ni..ni mesti mak bapak kau yg ajar ni..elok la tu, anak beranak bangang..

lahanat sungguh diorang ni..tk habis2 nk hina Islam..mulia sangatkah agama kau?? tinggi sangatkah darjat agama kau??

kau tu budak lagi..sekolah pun belum habis..fikir dulu sebelum buat sesuatu..memang gelap masa depan kau nanti..

just beware, kau dah naikkan kemarahan umat Islam..mungkin ad di antara kami yang akan bertindak di luar kawalan..

biarlah pihak berkuasa yang ambil tindakan terhadap kau..jangan sampai kami jumpa kau kat luar tu..memang kena kerat 18 kau nanti..

mohon Calvin Gani di sepak terajang sampai mati.........

Today's Quote......................

I know that.....,

I May Not Be Your First Kiss

I May Not Be Your First Love

I May Not Be Your First Anything

but,

As Long As I Am Your Last Kiss

As Long As I Am Your Last Love

As Long As I Am Your Last Anything Forever

That's all that matters.....

awak pernah ckp yg awak ni tk layak utk sy..awak ckp sy deserve someone better..tpi, sy nk awak tau, someone better yg awak maksudkan tu sebenarnya bukan org lain, orgnya ialah awak sendiri..bgi sy awak dh cukup sempurna..cukup sempurna utk sy..tk ad cacat cela yg sy boleh nmpk pd diri awak..pedulikan ap yg org akan kata pd kita..sy tk kisah pasal semua tu..mulut org bukan mcm mulut tempayan yg kita boleh buka tutup sesuka hati..org akn tetap mengata..biarkan mereka dengan kedengkian mereka..asalkan sy bahagia dgn awak & anak2 kita, itu dah cukup bagi sy..mungkin bagi awak ini satu janji manis yg sy taburkan..tapi, percayalah yg sy akan buktikan pd awak semua ini bukan sekadar janji..

sy sayangkan awak Jamila.......................

Seize the Day...........

 

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over
 
I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travelled on will undergo our same lost past
 
I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever? 

I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one Picture)
 
Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over
Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live In
No longer needed here so where do we go?
 
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of Death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one Picture)
 

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty, and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna Die alone without you here,
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
Whoah, so I never want to leave you, and the memories of Us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty, and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day [x2 then Continues in the background]
 

I'm stuck here alone
Falling away from me, no chance to get back home [x2]

yeah, that's so true...........

Naik Lagi??

last nyte around 10.30pm aku pegi tujuh sebelas nk beli topup..then ad sorg pak cik ni masuk trus letak RM10.20 kat atas kaunter..pak cik tu cakap kat cashier "nah, pak cik belanja"..mamat tu mmg da tercengang..haha..aku lgi la pelik sambil buat muka (seperti gambar di atas)..mamat tu cakap ar terima kasih kat pak cik tu..belum sempat dia nk amik duit, pak cik tu gelak sambil cakap "Benson & Hedges" sekotak..mmg malu ar..tpi bukan tu yg aku nk ceritakan sebenarnya..harga rokok naik lagi, 3%..mamat tu cakap "sorry pak cik, tk cukup lagi 3 kupang"..pak cik tu jawab, " hah, naik lagi, lantak kan, balun je..biarkan dia naik"..then pak cik tu gelak, amik rokok n trus blah..nasib baik aku pegi tujuh sebelas semalam, klau tk aku pun tk tau yg harga rokok naik lagi..haha..maklumlah, teman isap rokok John je..tk amik tau le pasal rokok mahal ni..

Quote of The Day............

Jamila Jamil............,

I Want You To Know That....,

When the angels ask what I loved most about life, I'll say YOU.

I Want You To Know That....,

YOU are my answered prayer, my fulfilled wish, my realized dream.

 I Want You To Know That....,

The cloud dances because of wind; flower sings because of rain; grass grows because of earth; and I live because of YOU

 I Want You To Know That....,

Making YOU smile is part of my daily routine. That is my way of letting YOU know that YOU mean the world to me.

I Want You To Know That....,

When I say I LOVE YOU, I don't say it out of habit. I say it to remind YOU that YOU are the best thing that has ever happened to me.

 I Want You To Know That....,

Forever is a long time,but I wouldn't mind spending it by your side.

I Want You To Know That....,

Everyday in my life, YOU're the one I wanna kiss goodnight & waking up in the morning with.

I Want You To Know That....,

YOU're the only one who I'll love until the day i die.

Tuhan Jagakan Dia.......................

Hanya dirimu yang ku cinta
Takkan membuat aku jatuh cinta lagi

  Aku merasa kau yang terbaik untuk diriku

Walau ku tahu kau tak sempurna
Takkan membuat aku jauh darimu
Apa adanya ku kan tetap setia kepadamu
Tuhan jagakan dia
Dia kekasihku kan tetap milikku
Aku sungguh mencintai
Sungguh menyayangi setulus hatiku

Walau ku tahu kau tak sempurna
Takkan membuat aku jauh darimu
Apa adanya ku kan tetap setia kepadamu

Tuhan jagakan dia
Dia kekasihku kan tetap milikku
Aku sungguh mencintai
Sungguh menyayangi setulus hatiku

Tuhan jagakan dia
Dia kekasihku kan tetap milikku
Aku sungguh mencintai
Sungguh menyayangi setulus hatiku

Tuhan jagakan dia
Dia kekasihku kan tetap milikku
Aku sungguh mencintai
Sungguh menyayangi setulus hatiku

Sweet............

"I keep myself busy with things to do,

But everytime i pause, i still think of u...."

Credit to: JJ.....

Loneliness.............

i don't really know the actual meaning of this word..but ryte now, i can tell you that i'm lonely..i've never felt like this before..it feels like i've got no one in this world..no one wanna talk to me..no one notice me..i've got no shoulder to cry on..

i miss you so damn much..............